So driving with my nephew (he is 6) the other day he asks me "zia, are you ever going to have a baby?". Knife in the heart #1!!
I say "I do have a baby!"
He says, "not a cat zia, a baby!". Knife in the heart #2!
I say, "I do have a real baby, remember her name is Sadie, for now she is safe in Gods memory!"
He says, "no zia a real baby like H is having!". Knife in the heart #3!!!
At this point my mother sees I am struggling so very hard so she steps in with some comment about who knows what!!
Breaks my heart my own nephews don't remember my baby girl! They don't remember anything about her existence!!!
I know I really shouldn't be surprised, no one (besides me) talks about Sadie, or about what happened to her, it's so sad and maddening because look what has happened...even her own family has forgotten her! What or who is next to forget???
Not me my baby girl! I will NEVER EVER EVER forget my beautiful precious baby girl!! I love you forever and ever!!
Hummingbirds remind me of my Sadie~tiny, gorgeous, and perfect! I was nearly kissed on my cheek by one my first week home from the hospital as I sat on my proch, there began my love for humming birds! I particularly love the ones with green on them as I imagine Sadie would have had green eyes like her daddy and myself!!
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3 comments:
heartbreaking. so sorry you had to go through that. hugs and prayers to you.
Sadie is not forgotten my love! I think about her everyday and have as many dreams about her! Sadie your mother and I miss you something bad your dad z
You have a brother now Colton he will know your name I promose
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